Benjamin Tod from Lost Dog Street Band, “Using Again,” // GemsOnVHS™

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This has to be the best version of this song.

I heard this in treatment. Wow. Every line was written for me! 03/02/2024. And I'm still clean 🫧

Yeah, totally smoking crack …

7 years since the stick. Now drinking is….

March 2026 Much Love

I remember playing this song after my friend requested perfect day by lou reed. It upset him halfway through and he requested another. I obliged and we we continued a nice day driving along in my 99 Camry even though he was angry and withdrawing and not entirely himself. He was so angry and irrational those couple of years before he left. It's like it took more and more from him until he didn't have any more. I tried to give as much as I could spare but it didn't do any good in the end. His parents appreciated seeing me around and I felt welcome in their home. My parents welcomed any friend of mine as a friend of theirs and we shared so many well fed and drank and smoked evenings there too. So many good meals in both places he was a cook working on being a chef and he started me on an education on Spanish which has spilled over into my current occupation in manufacturing. Most of all, I appreciate his love of learning and miss his complete knowledge dumps of whatever the topic of the day was…back then it was leftover crack other obscure musical groups the Spanish language and politics. I miss him and am crying for him and I will do my best to instill the ideals that he taught me into the current world. God bless you I love you peace be still and know that you are God my dear and departed friend.

Love this song

I’m 28. I’ve been under for 17 years and counting. Not even sure who I am independently. Maybe I’ll see starting next month lol.

Is that a guild troubadour? Just picked up a guild because of this song. Love the sound of them

Still my favorite and I never used 😂

Yes im here❤

💚💚MASTERPIECE 💚💚

Keep fighting ….someone needs us

Clean off the dope and coke for years now but still a total drunk. Maybe someday I can figure it out. Maybe

Thank you from the bottom thats shallow. God bless 🙌

8 years old and still speaking straight to people's souls

Thank you so much I used to listen to this when I 6high now I'm trying to be my best again so just ty my friend

Ive been here for years..love you buddy… come out to cali!!!!!

I’m living low down and I’m using again
I’m hating my name cause I’m cursed like my kin
And if I should see you before I’m condemned
I hope your deceived by the webs that I’ve spin
I wish I was who I appeared
Cause I despise the man in the mirror
Lost deep inside of my dirty old soul
Some starry eyed boy never taught self control
The cost of my living was more than I planned
So I held the needle like a gun in my hand
And I wish I was who I appeared
Cause I despise the man in the mirror
The memories Ive got torture my head
And I don’t know God but I heard he was dead
And if I am wrong and in judgement I stand
I will not repent cause I don’t give a damn
You can send me to hell with the rest of my friends
And I wish I was who I appeared
Cause I despise the man in the mirror
I’m living low down and I’m using again

So damn good

So fuc true God Bless ❤

Great meeting him. The real thing. Godspeed, Ben.

Mother fucker…don’t look me in the eye when you’re talking like that. Respect 🫡

1-11-26 Eight years clean🙏🏽
13 months 20 days w out any weed, never thought I’d quit smoking bud.

219 days today