Now that I'm older, I regret having loved people. It was all very silly and it left me damaged both emotionally and physically. I have found animals and plants to be good to love but people, not so much.
Revisiting this after so many days of yearning for something that will never be again. I've hit my head and am just gunning to be better for it, as I know that love takes many forms. Strangely, this was a closure I never thought would come from someone else. Thank you.
After years of claiming I am healing and moving on from someone I genuinely loved so much more than myself, I think that this one is the realest, most genuine one because it is so full of silence and just avoiding any engagement or even dating around. When love is there it's a feeling and a commitment. I just dont feel it right now for anyone else and it's for the best. I just have to be consistent in my firmness: of knowing what I want, of not comparing myself to millions of brokenhearted, young, energetic people who constantly go out there and see people, of turning that love inward.
I'm going to make journal prompts out of your videos now, even if I thought of this a year too late. Thank you man. ❤❤
Aya, ive been missing you a genuinely lot. But the pain is now something that I can bare. It doesn't nearly hurt as much. But yeah, it still kind of hurts. It's been about 2 months or so since we broke up but yeah, to this day i still think of you, i still miss you and most of all, i still love you, so much. I do wish not to feel this pain anymore but yeah i know that will happen. I just have to keep moving forward no matter how hard it is for me. I always wonder if you ever think of me as much as i think of you, but i also know that its pointless to even think about that so i try not to.
I found this video when I'm interested to a girl and suddenly during the process of trying to be close with her, she is already close with another man, which later became her boyfriend. I felt like i am kinda "defeated" or something like that. I know love isn't about race, but realizing that i like a girl who already interested in someone else and eventually saw her going on a date with another man, that broke my heart.
You don't understand how beautifully this video was made, bravo bravo, made me feel the idea of love all over again, kind of like a sample of the real thing. Best thing I have seen on YouTube yet. Or I'm just high and miss my girl, ex girl.
He could wrote it on paper and folded it in origami, with the simple thing on the outside and the complexities on the inside. Give “her” a choice if she ever wanted to know! And be proud.
And some nights I feel glad that I'm alone, and probably will continue to be alone for a long time.
Because frankly the thought of fumbling on my own destiny terrifies me more than the possibility that I simply miss it.
I don't wanna be alone forever, but I'm glad that I'm not wasting energy and effort on people that probably wouldn't like me. Just, finding me convenient. I don't want that. So I'll keep on being at home on friday nights and hanging out with friends, whoever they might be, cause maybe that's better than risking it all and coming out the other side with a permanently damaged view on how good times should feel and what kind of person I should be spending them with.
I’ve been in the situation just like I feel like a lot of people have and it was perfect we loved each other and i didn’t just want to have fun we were just in our honeymoon phase we went past it, just being around her was great and I didn’t need to “do it” I just wanted to be with them and cuddle them on the long nights and truly feel loved but then I realized that they only wanted a fast life and I wanted something along the lines of a wife and we grew distant and departed but I still love them but it was for the better we loved in different ways and I have to accept it 😉
this in a way is very beautiful to me, maybe because it's such pure consequences of true actions, and I live for the beauty of it all. I also do hope we never end up like this, but ig if we were to, despite the torment, it will be beautiful and like Sappho said "yes we did many things then all beautiful"
you cannot WANT TO love someone, you deal with your own baggage somewhere else and not make others' lives miserable. everything described in this video is BS, sorry but you can't make others solve your problems for you. ofc it was for the best, the best for her. you either love someone or set them free, that's why i don't understand the romanticising here. everyone deserves being loved full-time, not the potentiality of their s/o might some time of the week love them. you people solve your own stuff before triggering others' abondenment trauma just bcs you were bored of loneliness. and then you get bored of their love and start having this incredibly painful push-pull dynamic. f..off to everyone who treats a rs like this (ofc this comment is meant for one effed up person and this is my message i typed and deleted before sending it bcs he doesn't deserve a minute of my affection)
I don't understand. If you wanted to love them, and feel bad that you don't, doesn't that mean, at least in a very little sense, that you did have some love for them?
I don't think I'll ever have the joy of breaking from that piercing feeling. Maybe I should be grateful that I might never have to experience being free of the feeling just to have it's vicious spike run through my heart later down the line.
@radcatvxz
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
this was so well written it stung harshly
@chanlok2799
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
I want him to watch this video too
@atanamorell2
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Now that I'm older, I regret having loved people. It was all very silly and it left me damaged both emotionally and physically. I have found animals and plants to be good to love but people, not so much.
@EmmeCalde
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
i don't want to believe this is the end
@eschaton2834
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Kinda sounds you were trying to rekindle it at the end.
@ob5320-w3q
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
m
@KermenCL
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Have never loved or been loved like this. And its only going to get worse, fuck this.
@MonsterEater-l7w
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
This video is somehow always relateable
@whydoidothistomyselflmao
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Real.
@pitakben2478
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Came straight right after reading your book, Ben!
@holden9439
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Why is this so reletable…? My first relationship ended and damn this hits hard.
@smokegod91
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
So you kept her sweater?
@smokegod91
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
How old are you? And how long were you in this relationship?
@smokegod91
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
My ex-wife still texts me holocaust jokes occasionally so I guess it’s amicable at this point?!
@anchovyundpraline3052
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Revisiting this after so many days of yearning for something that will never be again. I've hit my head and am just gunning to be better for it, as I know that love takes many forms. Strangely, this was a closure I never thought would come from someone else. Thank you.
After years of claiming I am healing and moving on from someone I genuinely loved so much more than myself, I think that this one is the realest, most genuine one because it is so full of silence and just avoiding any engagement or even dating around. When love is there it's a feeling and a commitment. I just dont feel it right now for anyone else and it's for the best. I just have to be consistent in my firmness: of knowing what I want, of not comparing myself to millions of brokenhearted, young, energetic people who constantly go out there and see people, of turning that love inward.
I'm going to make journal prompts out of your videos now, even if I thought of this a year too late. Thank you man. ❤❤
@IlhomjonIbrohimov-et6yi
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
I hate love sometimes
@IanIanIII
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Aya, ive been missing you a genuinely lot. But the pain is now something that I can bare. It doesn't nearly hurt as much. But yeah, it still kind of hurts. It's been about 2 months or so since we broke up but yeah, to this day i still think of you, i still miss you and most of all, i still love you, so much. I do wish not to feel this pain anymore but yeah i know that will happen. I just have to keep moving forward no matter how hard it is for me. I always wonder if you ever think of me as much as i think of you, but i also know that its pointless to even think about that so i try not to.
I just wrote this for my self really.
@g2p2k
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
fuck, man…
@zahraelahi7271
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
gang a friend (who's no longer my friend) sent it to me back then… What should I contemplate from it?
@groeck54
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
this is one of the best videos on this platform fyi I always come back to it
@netromchannel5707
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
The problem with relationships is that they exsists
@thefished820
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
5 19, no pandemic en un ambiente nuevo
@aliensarenowhere
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Damn
@NilesIsakAlmirante
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
hey so wtf
@archibaldstryke
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
I found this video when I'm interested to a girl and suddenly during the process of trying to be close with her, she is already close with another man, which later became her boyfriend. I felt like i am kinda "defeated" or something like that. I know love isn't about race, but realizing that i like a girl who already interested in someone else and eventually saw her going on a date with another man, that broke my heart.
@EmsScott
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
well I'm back here again
@sonamchhodan7626
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
The kind of closure i deserve.
@SpdEmergency-wc8ii
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
youtube algorithm is somethign ngl,
@mr.crazycool6183
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
You don't understand how beautifully this video was made, bravo bravo, made me feel the idea of love all over again, kind of like a sample of the real thing. Best thing I have seen on YouTube yet. Or I'm just high and miss my girl, ex girl.
@yourfriendkota
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Hey, Des. If you ever see this, these words are for you.
@liantsang6758
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
He could wrote it on paper and folded it in origami, with the simple thing on the outside and the complexities on the inside. Give “her” a choice if she ever wanted to know! And be proud.
@Halimawmagprocrastinate
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
i miss you, Merry. you were everything.
i wish the universe does favor us next time.
@The-toast
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
And some nights I feel glad that I'm alone, and probably will continue to be alone for a long time.
Because frankly the thought of fumbling on my own destiny terrifies me more than the possibility that I simply miss it.
I don't wanna be alone forever, but I'm glad that I'm not wasting energy and effort on people that probably wouldn't like me. Just, finding me convenient. I don't want that. So I'll keep on being at home on friday nights and hanging out with friends, whoever they might be, cause maybe that's better than risking it all and coming out the other side with a permanently damaged view on how good times should feel and what kind of person I should be spending them with.
@Juderickroll
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
I’ve been in the situation just like I feel like a lot of people have and it was perfect we loved each other and i didn’t just want to have fun we were just in our honeymoon phase we went past it, just being around her was great and I didn’t need to “do it” I just wanted to be with them and cuddle them on the long nights and truly feel loved but then I realized that they only wanted a fast life and I wanted something along the lines of a wife and we grew distant and departed but I still love them but it was for the better we loved in different ways and I have to accept it 😉
@YarelMendoza-tt4id
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Absolut cinema
@mariszuki_1983
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
04:54
@MohdAnas-fs5yj
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
My heart, it hurts soo much
@vangoghsdiary
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
this in a way is very beautiful to me, maybe because it's such pure consequences of true actions, and I live for the beauty of it all. I also do hope we never end up like this, but ig if we were to, despite the torment, it will be beautiful and like Sappho said "yes we did many things then all beautiful"
@annastasxia8993
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
hey so this hurt ❤
@masthygoose
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
Does anyone know what the music is?
@butterandbreadsticks
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
i was shocked when i watched this video by how similar our two experiences were
@nestarobert
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
you cannot WANT TO love someone, you deal with your own baggage somewhere else and not make others' lives miserable. everything described in this video is BS, sorry but you can't make others solve your problems for you. ofc it was for the best, the best for her. you either love someone or set them free, that's why i don't understand the romanticising here. everyone deserves being loved full-time, not the potentiality of their s/o might some time of the week love them. you people solve your own stuff before triggering others' abondenment trauma just bcs you were bored of loneliness. and then you get bored of their love and start having this incredibly painful push-pull dynamic. f..off to everyone who treats a rs like this (ofc this comment is meant for one effed up person and this is my message i typed and deleted before sending it bcs he doesn't deserve a minute of my affection)
@Monkeyonasuit
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
I don't understand. If you wanted to love them, and feel bad that you don't, doesn't that mean, at least in a very little sense, that you did have some love for them?
@HorizonIncarnate
November 9, 2025 at 1:08 am
I don't think I'll ever have the joy of breaking from that piercing feeling.
Maybe I should be grateful that I might never have to experience being free of the feeling just to have it's vicious spike run through my heart later down the line.
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