Trying Not To Listen to My Trash Brain

I don't know if you'll ever read this or anything like that, but you genuinely seemed like somebody I should have had in my life. Not for romance or dating or any of that because I don't really know you in that way, but I could have used a friend like you in my lifetime. I say that because it sounds like we both have very similar personalities and have been through a lot. Our struggles are different but the resulting problems are very similar to listen to and I hope you're doing better and I love watching your videos because it's a lot of the same subjects and TV shows that I grew up with and it's very cool to see somebody who was a lot like me growing up because it seems like I was the only person who was into this kind of stuff LOL like Murder She Wrote Are You Afraid of the Dark and all the quirky TV shows and games you cover, thanks for exsisting. It helps me out in a wierd parasocial way.

Being a youtuber seems awful once fame sets in.

“Even though I was vaxxed and had the boosters”. Lady it was the injections did that to you.

What the hell is wrong with Myst? It changed my life as a kid.

Gotta do it for the cat

As an artist who is afflicted with mental illness, i think you will find "Hi, Ren" by Ren an amazing thing to watch and react to.

It is really raw, and speaks to the internal struggle of one with mental illness. It is a very heavy watch, but it is deeply moving, and the ending is super powerful. It is super emotiional, and even if you're not into the style, is worth a full listen.

I mean its not going to solve your problems, but if you want confirmation that others struggle, and you're not alone, its a very introspective journey.

Also, Chalk Outlines… very melancholy and haunting, but describes certain struggles with treatment.

End of the day, i hope some sympathetic music (even if it is raw, sad, angry, and dark at times) gives you some enjoyment.

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Thank you for the update Roses. Your perspective has had me reviewing my history of how I have looked at my pictures of myself and how I hate to look at them majority of the time and how I could possibly deal with that which even though they are more than likely not the same root cause, with some of the overlapping feels I was getting it helps to hear of what you go through. Take care and have a wonderful day

You're a brave person.

We are all our own worst enemies, but we can also be our own best friends too. I hope you're able to cultivate a beautiful best friend in yourself, because you deserve it, Roses 💙

Your hardships are caused by your poor choices. You dated a 20 year old guy when you were 15. How dumb.
Were you that oblivious to how strange he was? You dated a pedophile….

There's so much heartache and unnecessary issues you could have avoided.

Been following you since the early days of blip. Take it easy. <3 I believe in you.

"As normal as I am, which is not very." Same girlie, same.

Hang in there, babe, our brains can be so effing mean to us and I relate to a lot of this. I think it's common for those of us who struggle with mental health to also have a wicked sense of humor like you do. 'Cuz if we don't laugh, we'll cry right? At least that's what I'm always telling myself. Thanks for sharing your story. I know it's going to help a lot of folks❤

i failed to say that i have asperger's syndrome an found out too late for most of my life was all the wrong things that happens to an aspi but some reason hearing about your struggles with your condition helps thank you for shareing

Look I'm gonna say it like this your absolutely gorgeous your eyes are to die for…. You got a perfect jawline and your eyes and facial features are actually very appealing. To make it even better your not only beautiful as you are but so is your brain and your creativity, it shows in your artwork and in your videos…. no matter what people say or think always understand your special the way you are. I wouldn't have it any other way….. Keep kicking the world's ass. ❤

You're someone who has been an inspiration to myself, and many people. I hope none of this sounds platitudinous or insincere whatsoever, but as someone who has been through a somewhat similar situation with regards to grooming and stuff, I thank you for being brave enough to talk about these things – not just that, but all of the things you've had to face. I hope you know love, peace, and healing.