2014 tumblr grunge culture was traumatizing
The fact I did not know how popular all of these photos of me were until making this video still cracks me up LMAOOOO
ISO Insumo download link: https://app.adjust.com/9wqq09s
My links:
https://linktr.ee/allietricaso
business email: allietricaso@algebramedia.com
Helpful resources for EDs:
https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support/contact-helpline
https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/
https://www.onlinemswprograms.com/resources/resources-eating-disorder-recovery/
Helpful resources for depression:
https://www.everydayhealth.com/depression/guide/resources/
https://nndc.org/resource-links/
Helpful resources for SH:
https://www.crisistextline.org/topics/self-harm/#what-is-self-harm-1
https://www.thetrevorproject.org/resources/article/support-for-self-harm-recovery/
https://www.thetrevorproject.org/get-help/ (specific hotline)
intro/my Tumblr grunge experience 0:00- 2:32
TW/ disclaimer 2:33-3:08
romanization of mental illness 3:09-6:30
looking the part 6:31-9:06
the 2014 attitude 9:07-10:34
overall thoughts 10:35- 11:08
ad time 11:09- 11:51
outro 11:51-12:37
@mashagurova
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
2014 gave me nic addiction and stomach issues and that’s it honestly
@Dollfxce777
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
So very late but I completely got thrown back with this video, especially with the photos in the woods ! Me and my friends used to try so hard to pose on the branches and fell off one time and got bruises on our knees 😂 and obviously we put a bit of fake blood on and pale filter…definitely something XD
@lexiijohnson4650
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Watching skins and being on tumblr at the ripe at of 13 I was doomed from the start, didn’t stand a chance 😭
@lexiijohnson4650
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Redyed my hair blue for the first time since 2014 and am inevitably falling into every nostalgic trap. Looked through old grunge pics I took from that time and my friend says “I wish I knew about tumblr at that time” and it was so conflicting to say “No you don’t, but also I wish you did” because it really is so half and half
@lesliefelix9178
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Back in 2014, I used to post nudes to show my progress on my pro Ana and pro mia blogs.
I was 12 years old, that’s was really messed up
@aidenzdoodleden
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
so. this unfortunately still exists. i found myself in some of these tumblr communities earlier this year. they are harder to find as tumblr takes down a lot of tags, but still exists. tysm for talking about this as it is awful and im glad i didnt get myself stuck into the sh loop
@Sweepypuppy
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
A really sad thing is that this is always, unfortunately, going to be a thing with people. Whether it be tumblr, discord, Twitter, or whatever else, it’s all still happening. Videos like yours are crucial in making sure that people are informed of the harm these types of communities can cause. Communities on Twitter (shtwt, edtwt, anything along those lines) are extremely triggering, and I’ve noticed that so many people involved are like younger teens all the way into like full grown adults. The sad thing is that they think it’s helping, they think what they’re doing to themselves in order to fit the unrealistic beauty standards of modern society is a good thing. I’ve seen comments under thinspo threads saying things like “Please make more I need to be triggered smmm” or “please tag me next time you make one of these 🙏” and it’s utterly horrifying. These kids, without their guardians even knowing they’re struggling in a large number of cases, are actively making themselves worse and worse mentally, and they think it’s helping. Please, if anyone reading this is involved with or knows anyone who is in these types of communities, please try to distance yourself from the groups/try to get the other person out
@hazeykayy
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
(TW ED mention)
i still feel so much nostalgia for this time even though it was so bad for me. like i'm still struggling with a severe ED and the resulting chronic digestive & bone issues after 13 years because i spent all my free time on SH/ED/depression tumblr from 2012-2016. but the fashion? the aesthetics? the music? the culture? the fandoms? i have so many bittersweet memories of those things from this era. it was a massive part of my childhood and my whole life's trajectory, even if it was harmful, and i can't look past that. i feel really conflicted.
@ravely9784
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
oh wow i relate so much. i was 14-15 and was deep in this part of tumblr. i love the aesthetic, i feel seen (sort of).. i hated myself and everyone. i thought i was better than everyone too lol and it made me a b!tch, now i’m looking back at it. i still love the music and the fashion, but i would never want t the mental illness glorification from that time to come back…
@Konvictional.207
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
TW:
I’m 27 years old 2025 – Back when I was 19 I meet my first girlfriend (well ex now) she would have the same family problems as me at home but my ex at the time she did have depression too and basically I was trying to help her stop SHing because that was the first time I actually found out that that was a thing … but yeah I tried to help her stop and basically one day I was at home and my parents started yelling and arguing again and I couldn’t actually take it anymore so I went to my room and me crying phone in hand trying to call my gf … I tried 2 times no answer and I texted her no response and I look at the time it was really late it was 8:30ish at night and I remember what she told me why she shed what her response was and I’m not gonna say it but you probably know … and so I wasn’t able to get in contact with my gf and I was having a really hard time thinking of what to do next…. I hesitate and started to do the same thing my gf did and a few months later she cheated on … and I wasted 1 year and 6 months of my life …. Trying to help the person I loved most and because she was shing that made me always soooo sooo worried about my gf or ex at the time that I didn’t want anything bad to happen to her and all that time I was worried about her 24/7 that actually made me have anxiety because of how young I was only 19 and I never actually got into this situation of being tied into a relationship with someone with depression and I had that to deal with and then a few days of dating she comes clean about her SHing and that just was not a good relationship…. I see that now today but after she cheated on me I just lost it and O D 2017 and I just had so much to deal with family problems pushing my friends away after I graduated high school at 18 being alone with no friends cuz my ex at the time and but again I am 27 now and I’m still have depression yup everyday … lol and I have anxiety and social anxiety and the best of all adhd … and I’m 5’6 and I’m 118 pounds but i don’t have a ed it’s just that I don’t really eat as much now cuz again I have all this going on smh … but yeah I love you videos and I’ll fully support your content too by leaving a like 👍 🫶🏻❤️🩹
@rainbowjeremy-t3v
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
ahahhaah huge ears like big elf nice elf ears lol
@picklepantslolz
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
The artic monkeys cutting in and out is killing me
@90111hhhhhhhqib
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Dude, the nostalgia 😩
@tina.3924
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
TW:
sigh tbh i have kinda mixed feeling about this era. i was 9-10 in 2014 when i first discovered the band The Neighbourhood but became a huge fan of them only a little later in 2016. i was 12 and just started 7th grade at the time. this band was basically what introduced me to this "aesthetic" but since it was 2016, the whole soft grunge era was already slowly but surely dying out so i basically was unlucky (or maybe vice versa – lucky) enough to had experienced only the leftovers of it, which mostly involved just music and visuals (clothes not that much cause i was a kid w kinda strict parents who i was obviously financially dependant on). but again, it was the music of that era that got me hooked. and while i miss the visual part of it, i cannot imagine going back to the time when it was still fashionable to glamourize mental illness, suicidal tendencies, abusive relationships, addictions, substance abuse and even literal gore, pedophilia and sometimes even r@pe. the era was still carrying on a few years later on other social media platforms outside of tumblr and thats pretty much how i got into it since i didnt have tumblr itself. but thats besides the point. the toll on my mental state this era had even years after its peak at such a young age that i was in is INSANE, im still recovering from it. looking back at it, imma just say, never again. but the vibes and the music were IMMACULATE. probably one of the most creative eras on the internet still imo. im also from a post-soviet country and western trends used to take quite some time to reach the local audience back in the day so i still kinda experienced a huge part of it. but the coolest thing about it is that we also had our own social media platforms and on one of them such an interesting phenomenon took place when the western 2014 tumblr soft grunge reached eastern europe and got adapted to the local reality, creating a whole new aesthetic inspired by tumblr, now known as 2k17 (and as you may've guessed, it was HUGE in 2017). it had the same principle that the 2014 tumblr soft grunge had, just w some local changes. and while the visuals were fire, the propaganda of alcoholism, nicotine addiction, ED, SH and soviet union nostalgia was YUCK. so im personally all for bringing back the good parts of it, esp the fashion but the rest? nah, lets leave that behind. im also glad that i got to experience both variations of it, the western one and the local one, even if only partially. still remember downloading literal HUNDREDS of aesthetic pictures and gifs from we♡it and music from pirate sites into my phone to the point where there was barely any memory left lmao. what a weird time to be alive it was…
@icepops9100
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Ur so jim halpert coded
@Itslo13
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
It’s wild to think about like you could straight up see some insane gifs of tw* people like straight up cutting themselves in 2012-2017 tumblr it’s wild how much self harm and pro Ana gifs I saw in black and white.
@L0rar3
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I was depressed ever since I was about 8 y.o. so the internet culture surrounding these topics gave me some sort of stability. However, it can also lead to consuming more and more negative content, which will make the depression worse again. Idk if I would've survived my teen-years without Tumblr though because it was the only place where I wasnt yelled at or bullied for feeling bad.
BUT Tumblr definetey did play a huge role in my ED-development by providing advice for eating less etc.
My mother put me on diets from a pretty young age on even though I wasnt really obese, just a little chubby (I have severe hypothyroidism, Hashimoto and Asthma but my mom didnt accept that… "it will get better if you do more sport" etc.). I won't quote exact wording here because it could trigger other people but basically my mother bullied me into an ED and gave me the feeling of being unlovable the way I am.
When it got worse and teachers started calling my mom about their suspicion she just said: "huh? well at least it worked a little bit"
@medusah_stardust
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I remember Ana buddies too
@LovelyLittleLillies
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Thank you for making this video, these conversations are needed to be had. Though, I personally wasn't as heavily involved in that side of Tumblr save for a rare few reblogs of sad girl qiotes and posts, most of my page was just pretty scenery and landscapes and fashion photos. Plus, I joined Tumblr by the time I was an adult. There's still parts of that site that seem hideen and unknown to me, like pro ana spaces I wasn't arare of. No doubt Tmblr had negative effects with the way a corner of that site romanticized mental illnesses.
Now someone needs to make a video on 2000's emo music and how it influenced kids (who didn't have the best of parents or living situation but didn't have the worst either, who didn't actually have any depression or mental illnesses diagnosis) to wallow in self pity and encouraged them to be in a perpetual state of sadness, not feeling good enough, or encouraged negative emotions and seeking out negative emotions. It was the Tumblr of romanization of mental illnesses and bad family situations before Tumblr. I feel so strongly that the music of that time encouraged wallowing and focusing on negative emotions (and that for a person with depression it will only encourage and exasperate the symptoms) and I've yet to see someone adress the effects emo music had on kids who didn't have depression. So thank you for making this video, bringing awareness, and starting a discourse on it.
@WackyTaffy666
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
HELP whats name of the song that plays on that video of the dude skating its so familiar but i cant remember who made it im going insane 👽
@batatafrita2783
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I'm glad my parenta didn't allow me to use the wide internet when I was younger, because wow… I hope everyone affected by this is doing well and can fully recover because buddy…
@WhyAreTheyComplaining
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Dude I relate to this vid way to much, just switch grunge with glam rock and punk, god I wish I could forget middle school
@gabrielcastaneda9700
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
8 tracks was a big app everyone used
@Master_baiter-6969
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I’ve been dressing kawaii fashion for the past 4 years and in 2022 I saw a community grow called “cute core “ (basically just kawaii fashion ) since I have an Insta platform my self an tumblr and twitter I became friends with a lot of teens my age in the “cutecore” community , im shook. Exactly the same pro sh , pro Ana ,p3d0 baiting racism ! Ne0 n4z1s, l0l1c0n ,making everything look cutesy it literally happening all over again
@sunnylyn7526
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
This time of my life was so dark. And god it feels so good to know someone else actually was there too. Now I’m a pastel pink girlie obsessed with K-pop in therapy 🙂
@warriorprincesss
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
1976 – Girls.. what a visceral core memory 😤🥺 1 sec into the vid and I'm shook
@LunabellaxD
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
The social contagion of both the SH and ED was what really roped me into it because I already enjoyed that kind of music.
Then my best friend got really into all this, and I felt like in order to continue to be her friend. I had to go down that same destructive path with her.
She has continued those types of behaviors into our early 20s and we’ve distanced ourselves.
@PoliceOfficer-b4d
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I feel like something that has sprouted from this culture is the "female hysteria" tag and the "girlbloggers". They absolutely romanticize mental illnesses, and some of them are honestly just sadly cringe and clearly trying too hard. They make these whispers and memes with pretty backgrounds, framing it as relatable when really they need help. Often these are connected to the coquette aesthetic, which is an incredibly toxic community with harmful beauty standards, and more.
@wilbur-apollo-unus4058
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
((TW: sh, ed, sewerslide)) For me, this era was in 2017-2018. However, Tumblr wasn't all that different. Not to mention, I was on Wattpad with the "adopted by youtuber" fanfictions where y/n was this perfect, depressed, emo girl. I wanted to be that so bad. I had already been experiencing depression since I was 9 (2014), but these romantizied versions of mental disorders helped put a name to something I didn't even know I had. I was indulging in my depression because of this era, rather than trying to get better. I latter tried SH for the first time. Now I still struggle bc if it didnt leave scars im not "depressed enough." Ik that realistically, that's not true, but its still ingrained in me. I started gaining body image issues, but not bc of the internet. It was my mom who made me feel i was "fat." (ive always had a high matobalism. i was not fat. and even if i was, it shouldnt have mattered if it wasnt effecting my health) I didnt know how else to become "skinny" besides ed's. Luckily, I didn't commit to it very long because the feeling of hunger would made me feel overstimulated. My first sewerslide attempt was when I was 12. I didnt commit, and no one ever found out. But I still remember that night. And despite all the bad that came from back then, I'd do anything to go back. I made my first online friend. She was the reason I came out as bi. (irronically enough, im a mlm transman now) I started writing, which has continued to be my passion nearly 7 years later. I was going out a lot, I had a fun group of friends at school. I, despite the depression, was happier than I had ever been. All the things i went through back then feel like nothing compared to now. If i could go back with the knowlege I have now, I think it would've been the perfect era of my life
@mimisepic
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Ok Dude listen I still love the Arctic Monkeys
@superpeachybaby
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
not daddy issues playin in the background-
@bleachedberry2205
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
its so crazy how this stuff makes a comeback, i had to suffer through very similar stuff on the ed and mental illness side of tiktok
@matthewsingh989
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
3:10 anyone know where that video came from
@emmyfox2304
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I am glad I was in elementary school and not on tumblr then because I would just sucked right into that
@smallstepseverydayyoga
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Thank you for sharing. It is eye opening to see younger generation’s experiences with the internet. I sought the sites you mentioned (tumblr) in my late teens/early twenties because I struggled with mental health issues. The sites did help and gave me a sense of “belonging”. I have never realized that the other side of that was that perfectly healthy kids were actually being damaged or lead down a negative path from these blogs. I remember being disappointed when the internet started shutting down the blogs I sought for comfort, and now I realize it is as harmful as you say. Well said, thanks for sharing.
@sadkidsaesthetic7253
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
Please please please talk about EDTWT and SHTWT it’s so so so terrible
@ratwhispererr
November 4, 2025 at 8:02 am
I taught so many guys how to use lighters its honestly embarrassing for them
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