My Eating Disorder: Recovery, Relapse, and Learning to Love Pizza Again
Welcome to the Recovery Zone. In this video I discuss my battle with an eating disorder, addiction to binging and purging, then recovery. Also featured: Drawings of tacos.
Part one goes over BDD, I recommend watching it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJdyCnCLLgk
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@cryptiecreep
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
This is the video I recommend to my friends in recovery for their mental health struggles. I've never had anyone tell me that relapses happen and it doesn't mean you're failing, or that it's okay to get rid of stressors instead of willpowering through it. I think a lot of people really need to hear it.
@groennkule
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
I've been to group therapy for other stuff, and I had never expected how much it would matter and change my way of thinking. I've done other forms of therapy, but group therapy was really effective. As an introvert with loads of social anxiety I really didn't want to, so I pressured myself, and it pays off every day. Thank you for sharing your experience, and making it easier for your followers to accept themselves and get therapy – if they need it.
@DarkKnight-dq7ek
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Thanks Girl, mental health is a subject I wish was more open WAY back in the day, and that people had more resources to help them out sooner.
@billybollockhead5628
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
thank you! If I knew you in person, i'd give you a (non sexual – an I HAVE to state that nowadays – ugh).. hug.
@jacsickels7597
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
I avoided this video bc I knew it would be heavy. Got teary many times. I really appreciate how vulnerable you are about this. All of it. I hope it reaches the right people. Thank you so much.
@HopelessHermit
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Totally get this just replace food with alcohol. At my healthiest a coworker told me I was Gaunt and dying….and that was before puking blood all the time
@angelaholmes8888
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
I hope you are doing okay I suffered from an eating disorder when I was a teenager i was anorexic at times I starved myself because i had no control over my life at the time I felt so lost and broken I also was self harming myself by hitting and cutting on myself it took me years to stop doing that to myself and there are times I still struggle with it
@rickyray2794
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
I was super hooked on prescription pills for the longest time, it resulted in a DUI and I hated myself for a long time. It took a lot of time and work to forgive myself. Edit: Thanks for this vid. It helped. Also, are you an '86 baby too?
@adamwatson2914
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Good on you, very glad for you that you managed to work through the worst of what you’ve been through and that you’re in a better place in your life now ✌️
@KeroVlog
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Thank you for this video and I am proud of you, I know it was not an easy task and I admire you for that!
@Reed_Publications
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
I completely sympathize with your experience as I have experienced something very similar. I have always struggled with my weight and had a number of people point out this flaw. It wasn’t until I realized that I REALLY don’t care what other people think of me that I was able to overcome these issues. Naturally I still try to keep my weight in control, but I have absolutely no interest in altering my body for any jackass who has a problem with my weight. Granted, it’s important to remain healthy, but you are beautiful no matter what anyone says. There’s more to the human experience than simply focusing on your body image or what other people think of you. 👍
@gabrielleangelica1977
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Man looks at the body, but God looks at the soul…🎑 One day at a time. Thank you for your work.
@speabody
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
While I have not experienced an eating disorder you make great points about removing temptation entirely and eating the same thing for breakfast. Before gym closures wrecked my regimen I was exercising daily while eating not just the same break-fast (I was doing intermittent fasting too) of Greek yogurt + toasted coconut + berries every day I ate almost the same two meals and snacks every day. I am a creature of variety and exploration but somehow I didn’t get tired of it. Limiting my options (I was low carb) made it so easy to stick to the path.
It was like walking by the junk food aisles while shopping. Picking one thing > walking up to the shelf before walking away > walking by the aisle, pausing, saying “no” out loud before continuing on > walking by and briefly turning my head toward the aisle without breaking stride > doing the same but glancing for a half second without turning my head. I need to get back to that.
@SteverenoOFFICIAL
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
I don't have BDD, but I have OCD, so I knew this and the prior video were going to be like catching up with horrible family members. I'm in my 25th year or so of having OCD, plus I think I have had generalized anxiety disorder for my entire life.
I'm really glad you brought up CBT…it is not fun, but it can be so amazingly helpful and freeing and just effing awesome when you realize you are making progress. You frequently mention the movie Misery, and you may be interested to know that I worked that into a CBT exercise. I'll try to be brief…I had been noticing that I was becoming more and more impacted and afraid of gory/painful stories, images, etc. It could cause panic attacks and fainting. Sooooo…I decided to force myself to encounter something gory and feel those feelings. So I have seen the hobbling scene from Misery over 100 times…that is not hyperbole.
If you've seen the movie, you know the scene…and if you don't know CBT you may be thinking "why would you ever want to see something like that so many times?!?!" Well, I was very committed and wanted to get to a spot where I could watch it and just be bored, and I got there; so now I am much less afraid that I will see something that will scare me and I'll never ever be able to forget it and it will always scare me for the rest of my life (that is what my OCD brain said would happen)
@botanicaltreasures2408
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Articulate and poignant. Thank you for sharing your struggle. When I was in college I had a unit mate who was bulimic. I didn’t even know the name for her regularly scheduled purges. She was popular and I wasn’t and I never imagined she needed help. Your artwork in this video is delightful—it reminds me of a sun catcher. You are a person of worth—God made you. I found your channel when I was looking for computer adventure game review “The Last Express.”
@peoplethesedaysberetarded
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Hmm. “Big as a house.” I see it. I think this is more about composition than “being thin.” Listening to you, it really sounds like Münchausen / Factitious Disorder is in full force, possibly even now. Listening and looking at you, it doesn’t seem like you’re out of the woods yet, though I’m sure you would disagree. Hopefully you can come through it.
@whiteydiamond
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
Boo hoo
@SantaFishes101
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
your description of the symptoms reminded me a lot of being starving as a kid. it really takes over your mind and body
@ballzinferno9793
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
And thanks again
@goodroot76
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
idk how to take compliments and also I don't know how to express them, but good job.
@ELEcomments
September 28, 2026 at 7:35 am
What an awful thing to deal with:( I'm glad to hear you're doing better. Hope that is still the case. You are lovely <3
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